Bailey Thomas Loader

My special baby Bailey Thomas-Loader
"Boo"
Sun rise 28/05/2003- Sun set 13/06/2008
Age 5

I would like to say a big thank u to Jakie and Kelly for
there support and for setting this site up for me and
my little boy. Please lite a candle for another special
angel Bonnie Barrett. Thank u to everyone here on GTS
for all your support.xxxxx

Bailey leaves behind me his ever loving mummy
and a very big family he was my only child.

Perfect
That is my little boy from the moment u was born I knew
I had been given a special gift and after 3 days of labour
looseing your heart beat 3 times and 3 times they got me
ready for a C-section but decided not to. You was a fighter
from day one u had to put up with so much I was always
backwards and forwards with u to the doctors and always
sent away. It breaks my heart to think back when u started
showing signs of what was really wrong. It was october
2006 u were 3 and a half years old and u had
just started nursery u started being sick I thought it was
a tummy bug cos u got bettter but then u started being sick
again once twice even three times a day I took u to the doctors and
hospitals so many times and they always
put it down to somthing else. Until the 21st of march 2007 it took one doctor to look in your eyes
and book an emergency
CT scan it was then we were told u had a brain tumour. We were rushed to another hospital for
emergency surgery on the 22nd and 23rd. U got through it as the fighter u r but more bad news was to
come. U had a stroke lost all mobility and then we got told the tumour was cancerous.
6 months of chemo then 6 weeks of radiothearpy
and u fought and u got your mobility back and walked. Then u relasped Nov 2007 and lost the use of
your arms again the cancer was back we were told u proberly wouldnt make it cos it was so bad but u
did and amazed everyone and got the use of your arms back. We left hospital after a stay of nearly 5
months and like always u never complained. Little did we know u would spend your last Christmas in
hospital. We went back to hospital u had to have a stem cell transplant and high dose. It all went
so well even the transplant I was warned it could make u really ill but it didnt and when it was
done your nurse said "perfect Mr Bailey as usual". We were getting ready to go home in the next
couple of days when everything went wrong u got a really bad chest infection, Fluid on your lungs,
High potassium but the worst was your legs got weak and your left arm. We had to wait for u to get a
bit better so u could have an MRI scan. I knew in my heart what was wrong and my worst fears were
confirmed on the 24th of may. I went to see your scans as I always did and it was
so horrible your brain and spine were covered in it.
I was told u only had a couple of weeks then on the 26th they said u only had a couple of days so we
had your last birthday in hospital u got so many presents and we all laughed cos we sent the men to
get your cake and they came back with 6 of them. You picked up in yourself so the following week we
took u home u lasted just over a week. We knew the day had came that morning nannie lifted u out of
bed for me and
placed u on my lap for a big cuddle and we told everyone to come round. Me and Nic Nic sang u songs
while Jodi was doing his Homer simpson impression for u and we all told u how much we loved u and me
and Nanny told u it was ok to rest and to have a lovely sleep. U fell to sleep in my arms and I will
always be gratefull for that.
U fought such a brave battle I will never ever forget u and I promise we will be together again I
love u more then the world as we would always say to each other. Sweet dreams my Perfect Baby Bailey
Boo. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

THE BEST
God saw you getting tired,
And a cure was not to be,
So he put his arms around you
And whispered "Come to Me".
With tearful eyes we watched you,
And saw you pass away.
Although we loved you dearly,
We could not make you stay.
A golden heart stopped beating,
Hard working hands to rest,
God broke our hearts to prove to us,
He only takes the best.


God looked around his garden and found an empty place,
He then looked down upon his earth and saw your loving face,
He put his arms around you and lifted you to rest,
His garden must be beautiful he always takes the best,
He knew that you were suffering he knew you were in pain,
And knew that you would never get well again on earth.
He saw your path was difficult he closed your tired eyes,
He whispered to you "Peace be thine" and gave you wings to fly,
It broke our hearts to lose you but you did not go alone,
For part of us went with you the day God called you home.


To My Dearest Family:
Some things I'd like to say
but first of all to let you know
that I arrived okay
I'm writing this from Heaven
where I dwell with God above
where there's no more tears
or sadness there
is just eternal love
Please do not be unhappy
just because I'm out of sight
remember that I'm with you
every morning, noon and night
That day I had to leave you
when my life on Earth was through
God picked me up and hugged me
and He said I welcome you
It's good to have you back again
you were missed while you were gone
as for your dearest family
they'll be here later on
I need you here so badly
as part of My big plan
there's so much that we have to do
to help our mortal man
Then God gave me a list of things
He wished for me to do
and foremost on that list of mine
is to watch and care for you
And I will be beside you
every day and week and year
and when you're sad
I'm standing there
to wipe away the tear
And when you lie in bed at night
the days chores put to flight
God and I are closest to you
in the middle of the night
When you think of my life on Earth
and all those loving years
because you're only human
they are bound to bring you tears
But do not be afraid to cry
it does relieve the pain
remember there would be no flowers
unless there was some rain
I wish that I could tell you
of all that God has planned
but if I were to tell you
you wouldn't understand
But one thing is for certain
though my life on Earth is o're
I am closer to you now
than I ever was before
And to my very many friends
trust God knows what is best
I'm still not far away from you
I'm just beyond the crest
There are rocky roads ahead of you
and many hills to climb
but together we can do it
taking one day at a time
It was always my philosophy
and I'd like it for you too
that as you give unto the World
so the World will give to you
If you can help somebody
who is in sorrow or in pain
then you can say to God at night
my day was not in vain
And now I am contented
that my life it was worthwhile
knowing as I passed along the way
I made somebody smile
So if you meet somebody
who is down and feeling low
just lend a hand to pick him up
as on your way you go
When you are walking
down the street
and you've got me on your mind
I'm walking in your footsteps
only half a step behind
And when you feel the gentle breeze
or the wind upon your face
that's me giving you a great big hug
or just a soft embrace
And when it's time for you to go
from that body to be free
remember you're not going
you are coming here to me
And I will always love you
from that land way up above
Will be in touch again soon
P.S. God sends His Love